"Sunny Disposition"

This day just seemed to zoom on by!

School was pretty cool today.  I STILL feel like the outcast... mostly because I'm not socially involved with everyone... but I feel myself starting to get comfortable.  So by the next few weeks I'm sure I won't feel like a COMPLETE outsider.

In school we actually got to work with our doll heads and touched base on finger waves, pin curls, and braiding.  There was a quote on Tumblr that I liked: "Be so good they can't ignore you -Steve Martin."  And I feel like my classmates got a taste of that today.  It felt awkward being put on the spot and everything.  But I feel like it brought validation to my worth.  Like I NOW stand out because I was good at something.  Well, it's not stopping there!!  I can't wait to learn more and gain more knowledge and skills!  I'm ready and motivated!  Also, I sprayed water down the front of my shirt trying to rinse my doll head...  Luckily I was wearing all black!... haha, kinda embarrassing but I live.

Today was also the first time I took the trolley and bus home from school.  Gotta remember to bring sunglasses for the trips back home on the trolley.  And.  Buses suck.  I think Imma have my Pops pick me up from the trolley station next time.  Walking around with all my shit just was NOT the business.  I was so out of breath and sweaty by the time I reached my house.

After a little snack and some rest, I decided to go for a run since I've been neglecting my fitness.  I made sure to start heading home before the sun went down and then I finished off with my trusty jump rope once I got back home again.  It was more of a walk than it was a run... but I'm still counting it apart of my "training schedule."

Once I settled down and showered and prepped my hair for tomorrows look, I started my HW.  YEAH.  I have hw again! :P  It was just a little fill in the blanks type of thing pretty easy stuffs.  And now I'm here.  Blogging.  It really did feel like this whole day came to an end so quickly.  I'm usually tired and sleepy by now... but I'm still pretty awake.

Actually.  I think it's time I rest and lay in bed.

First Day of School

I was pretty nervous for the first day of school.  I haven't been in a classroom setting with a bunch of new faces I've never seen or met before in a while.  So I was getting pretty anxious that I wouldn't make friends too easily or feel like an outcast or just be socially awkward.

My classmates are all pretty interesting and have great personalities and great energy.  I just feel like I'm not in my comfort zone with all these girls (there are two guys in my class!  One is a douche kinda guy and the other is gay) and I let my introverted-ness shine.  It's okay, I hope to get out and be more outgoing throughout this year or so with them.  I will be seeing 'em for the next how many weeks so I've GOT to get comfortable.  At least everyone is friendly.  I know that'll make the process of feeling comfortable that much easier.

Turns out I'm the token Asian in the class.  Everyone also seems to be married or still pretty young.  I feel so bland compared to everyone.  It's okay, I'll shine when I get a chance to, right?  We all will.

I think the most stressful part of the day was getting out kits and unwrapping and organizing everything.  It was a LOT of shit that we had to cram into a little box.  I'm really going to hate lugging all my equipment to and from school.  Public Trans Lifeeeee -_- Luckily I got my Pops to pick me up because I really had too much crap to carry with me.  At least my load will be bearable tomorrow.
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I felt the jealously awaken in me today.  I don't really feel like getting into the DETAILS details of it... but yeah.  WHY must I feel so little and insignificant at times.  This is the neverending battle with me.  Chin up, girl!!!!!!  I need more positive reinforcements in my life.

I've had this killer headache since I got out of class... I'mma shower and lay down.  Day two tomorrow!

Feel it in my Bones

Just because I heard this for the first time in forever.  And because it reminds me of Jek.  And cause I've been hearing a lot from her recently.

Even though this was pretty much my last week of freedom, I didn't really get a chance to enjoy or relax through any of it.  The past two days were SCORCHING hot.  We reached the high 100+ degree mark ;O.  It was terrible; work plus PMSing plus the ridiculous heat was horrendous.  Luckily the temperature dropped around the 80's.  Which was NICE compared to that Egypt(my coworker said it was so hot it felt like we were walking in Egypt.  LOL.) weather.

Yesterday, although was HOT as balls, was bearable due to the following factors:
- Copped a pair of JC wedges @ Nordstrom Rack for almost half the original price.  (My first pair of JC's!)
- N brought me a smoothie before my dinner shift <3
- My coworker got me a cup of whipped cream from Starbucks (I originally asked him as a joke.  But he really got it for me!  How sweet!  Lol.)

Today was kind of stupidly fucked, but I live.  I ended up working all day even though I was only scheduled to work the first part of the day and had other plans to attend.  I forget my manager doesn't care if I have a personal life or not.  I'm too nice I guess.  But whatever.  Long story short, I got my haircut done, shopped around FV mall, had an early dinner at Boudin, AND THEN went into work for my second shift.  I was pissed to be forced the work tonight and I stated that if she REALLY NEEDED ME to come in that I would be late.  So I basically took my time and relaxed till I clocked in again.  I work again tomorrow, but luckily I got her to cut my dinner shift cause I covered a coworker today.  I just wanted a fuckin day off.

I keep spending money damnit.  Keep on spending till I have no more to spend... keep on spending till I realize I don't have enough to be living this way.  IT STOPS HERE!!!!!  This week I think I bought two pairs or shoes (for school!), two mascaras (I'm currently looking for a good one that CURLS.  And I didn't know I was going to be near a Sephora today...), more black attire, a pair of earrings... and I think thats it?  Oh.  And I pre-ordered the iPhone5 ;o.  WELL IT STOPS HERE!!!!!!! ;f

I start school soon.  FUCK!!

A few things:

MY FREE RUNS FINALLY CAME IN. And they are beautiful. I don't think I've ever been this excited over a pair of Nikes before. Whatever. They are lovely and I'm breaking em in tomorrow when I run to C's house. I feel like I haven't been running often this week... actually I think I just planned out my schedule weird this time around. It's okay, I've been doing a little bit from the times I haven't been running. At least I'm keeping active.

So the iPhone 5 made it's debut today and will be released to the public on the 21st of this month. Am I one of those suckers that's buying the new iPhone? Yes, yes I am (I'm pre-ordering the bitch). Don't hate, I'm over it. The progression of technology is amazing... and I do need a new phone (my main buttons are fucked up). So there you go, you haters continue to drink that haterade. Lol.

Since this is basically my last week of freedom I've been trying to think of things to do... but I really can't think of anything spectacular to do. Oh well, I'll just make sure to enjoy it all! Regardless of that happens.

On Sunday I'm getting my hair cut. I'm not sure how I wanna do it this time. I just know that it needs to be cut. I'm thinking of just having the lady do whatever she feels like doing. I'm leaning on that option seeing as I have no clue what else I can do. Here's to forever looking like a boy! ;f

It's been a pretty eventful Tuesday!

This morning I got up early and drank my morning shake of the day (NTS: That's it, totally over coffee... kinda), tested out the bike my Dad got back a few days ago (I'm so not used to biking. And I think this bike needs some maintenance... I felt like it was going to fall apart on me!), and got ready for the rest day ahead of me.

All I had scheduled for today was the contract meeting for school. So I headed there a little early to get good parking and possibly get a head start on everything. Everything was pretty much a breeze. Left the place excited and nervous about starting next week! It's all so crazy. I already bought new clothes (seeing as I don't really have enough black clothing) and went shopping for school supplies I need for the first day.

I drove over to my love's house and we had a movie cuddle session and pretty much stayed in bed for the remaining half of the afternoon. It was nice to getta relax with him after my eventful day (looking at it now, I didn't do a LOT... I guess it was content wise). Even nicer that it wasn't scorching hot as it's been the past few weeks! So cuddling was extra comfortable :3

I feel like this is my final week of actual freedom... let's see what I can do with my days before I'm a busy busy bee.

Drifting in and Out

Spendthrift

I'm in no position to be spending my money on luxurious wants, but it happened today.  I'll be broke in a few months yet I go out on a mini splurg... WELL.  Let my walk you through the things I've bought within the last few days:

- Black H&M pull-over knit sweater (For the colder seasons/for school)
- Black XXI circle skirt (For school)
- XXI Ornamental brass earrings with Cameo embellishment
- Plum Nike Dri-Fit running shorts (For the Color Run.  My sister and I are matching)
- Grey Nike Dri-Fit running tights (I just tried them on and was mind blown on how comfortable and light these bad boys were.  Totally worth the money.  And now I don't have to buy those PINK yoga pants I've been eying.)
- A skein of Red Heart yarn & size 15 knitting needles (I'm making an infinity scarf/it's something to do while I transport to school.)

I'm still in need of a few things... black boots, a black top, socks/hosiery, and a haircut.  Fuck my life for being so spendthrift.  I still have packages in the mail that need to make it my way too!  Like my Free Runs & Circa album.  My Shakeology package came in yesterday or something.  I'll give you my review on that sometime soon.

Until then... pizza time!

Work To Do

So it's pretty much set.  I have one more step in setting my educational goals in stone.  I already put a deposit down for my spot in the class for September 18th and I just have to go in one last time to go over and sign contracts.  It's pretty mind blowing actually!  I'm scared and nervous and excited to be going back to school!  I am not looking forward to taking public transportation (I already bought my monthly pass and figured out the routes I need to take) and being broke for the next year... it's okay, it'll be worth it in the end!  Chin up and stay positive and stay motivated!

So now that I have school planned back into my life, I feel a little more secure in life.  Yeah, I STILL don't have a car (I'm spending all the money I was saving for it on school), but as long as I'm going to school and working that's good enough for me.  I don't need to be out every day and see everyone all the time.  I've spent the last year and more doing that!  So it's time to get serious!  It's about time too!

School, work, and running.  That's what I've got in life to keep me on the right track.  And whatever else lies in between all that.

2012 is turning up.  Progression, bby.

Hump Day

So I finally picked up the prints from the three rolls of film that have been sitting around in my room.  Take a look at my flickr and see for yourself!  I'm trying to make use of the cameras I have so expect more uploads more often! (I've got till October to use up J's Canon, ya know!)

Right now I'm listening to my iTunes.  It's basically music I listened to in high school and a taste of some music I downloaded a bit recently.  It's all so nostalgic.  Currently it's LOWERdefinition.  I LOVED this band.  HAHA.  Anyways, speaking of Apple, the iPhone 5 release date is nearing...  I'm SO ready to pre-order the bitch.  My lock button is busted and my home button works 45% of the time... those are my major reasons as to why I'd like a new phone.  I'll be patient.  I mean I have been for the past how long.

So tomorrow is the big day.  Well not necessarily... well, after tomorrow I'll know what to expect within the next month and shit.  I'll fill you in on the shenanigans later on tomorrow.  My fingers are crossed that everything actually goes well!  I'm scared, but hey.  You gotta live and do things that frighten you, right?  Right!  It won't kill you (just stay positive)!

Today started off nice, I woke up next to N a little later than expected.  But that's okay (it was the latest I've been up in a while, but he made staying in bed too good to get out of).  I went to Fashion Valley mall in attempt to FINALLY take home some running shoes that I've recently been obsessing over.  But no dice!  Okay okay, it's because I was being picky on what color scheme to get... but whatever.  I came home empty handed again.  Well, the deal on the shoes thing is that I ordered them online.  I mean I tried them on in stores so I know what to expect.  It had to be done.  I'm so stoked!  I have like a million other packages that need to make their way towards me already!  I've definitely splurged in things this month alone.  It's okay, I'm trying not to spend anymore money on things that are not essential to me.  Like fancy clothes and shoes.  Or accessories or little nick-nacks that catch my eye.  It's so hard to do, but I've already done some damage.

It's JUST come to my attention that I have not seen or spoken to one of my bff's in maybe a month!  Luckily we got to "catch up" on FB.  Oh the wonders of online chatting, right?  Haha.  She's just as crazy as she was when I last saw her.  It was really refreshing though.  To get that dose of crazy.  Well, I definitely need to see her sometime soon.  I need a little girl time in my life.

The Color Run

If you haven't heard of it, take a look!  I signed up my sister and I for the Color Run in November!  I'm pretty excited about it and it's pretty much keeping me motivated!  Seeing as I'm pretty much a noob to this running thing, I've been doing some research on getting ready to run my first 5k and yada yada yada.  But seriously, I feel like this is one of the only things I've got right now to look forward to.  Well, it's good I've got something!

I like that I'm getting into running.  It motivates me to stay active and be healthy.  Plus points that I also cut out smoking and drinking.  I'm thinking about actually keeping alcohol and cigarettes outta my diet for a bit longer than expected.  I mean, I've gotten this far and I have other goals I want to accomplish.  Smoke and alcohol will just slow me down!  As for my attempt in becoming vegan... that one is harder for me than the whole giving up drinking and smoking thing!  But I'm working on it.

Tomorrow morning I'm planning on waking up early and taking a run/walk to my bff's house.  Hopefully I wake up on time so I can beat the sun!  Last time I went out for my workout, it was HOT.  And it was only 9 or 10 in the morning.  Damn you Summer!