Just Do It

As of recently, I've found myself to be consistently waking up around 7am this entire week.  I'm starting to get used to it i guess.  It's a little weird getting up and starting my day so early... I guess that gives me more time out of the day to do something a little more productive.

Speaking of being productive with the extra time I have in the morning, I think I've added another goal I'd like to accomplish by the time I turn 25.  And that is to complete a half marathon.  Not only will it be fulfilling, but it will help strengthen my mental and physical well being.  So I'm thinking about doing my research for beginning runners and start pre-trainning.  And to get into the swing of things I'll start off running a 5k and work myself up to my goal.  Sounds easy enough?  Now the hard part... actually getting off my butt and start exercising.

BEAUTIFULUNIVERSEMASTERCHAMPION

I feel like I can listen to this song on repeat.

I'll just save the blog for tomorrow, nights.

7 Billion People All Alive At Once

I'm almost 25, so the question to some of my friends was "What is one thing you'd like to do before you turn 25?"  Here's some of their responses:

- JM: Record a CD
- NN: Do a small tour and play music
- JJ:  Go to grad school
- CY:  Go to Vegas, Hawaii, or skydive
- JI:  Skydive or get casted for the L Word
- RB:  Go to an actual Octoberfest in Germany

I know turning 25 isn't until two years, but time has been flyin!  There's no harm in making a bucket list type thing.

Scar Tissue

Its confusing how the weather likes to change so constantly.  Especially since I'm not doing a lot these days... it's all I really come to notice.  It was hot and sunny yesterday and today its gloomy with slight sprinkles here and there.  I wish I didn't have to go into work later today.  It's like the perfect weather to just stay in bed all day and read or write or nap.

It's only been about a week now, but I can definitely see a change in how my body is running.  I don't feel to be as anxious anymore.  And my bad habit of chewing ice is pretty much nonexistent now (it was a nervous habit type of thing).  Also I feel myself to have more energy.  Not as lazy as I usually am.  I mean, I'm still fuckin lazy, but it's different now.  So far I like how this whole "cleanse" is turning out.  Let's see how the rest of the month holds out for me.

So I'm setting up an interview and tour for a school I'm interested in.  I won't reveal what school it is until I finalize anything.  I haven't really told any one my intentions... but hopefully it works out!  I'm dying to go back to school and at this point I'm ready to do anything to make it happen.  I'm scared mainly because of financial reasons, but I'm willing and ready to pull out loans to get started on a career.  Wish me luck?

Yesrerday: Sunday

 

I spent my Sunday Funday with that guy right there.  We started around noon and roamed the streets of downtown.  He won a pair of Munitio headphones and we had lunch at the Neighborhood ("Why the fuck would you wanna go anywhere else?").  It was actually a nice day to be out.  It was still pretty hot, but it was bearable.  And that's a lot coming from me cause I hate hot weather.  Afterwards, we headed to Seaport with the intention of seeing S at work.  We just roamed through the shops and walked along the coast until it was about time S went into work.  Turns out he was running late, but we did run into a friend we haven't seen in a while so he hooked us up with some delicious coffee.  We pretty much spent the rest of the day lounging at parks and thinking of what to do next.  I was pretty beat from being out all day and we finally ended up at my house to catch the next episode of Breaking Bad.

Overall, it was a good Sunday.  A nice change from just staying home all day and dying from boredom.

So this is now week two of my body cleanse.  SADLY I have failed for the past two days (I indulged in sweets and had a tuna sandwich).  But that stops now!  As far as the drinking and smoking, I've been doing great!  Saturday was the Summer Beer Olympics and I decided not to even bother in going.  So after work, I hit up C and went over to his house to have some sober fun.  It was nice to have him around and not drink with me.  Being sober on the weekends IS possible, folks!  That sounded so sad, lol.  But it's true!  I think that's what I'll do instead of going out to these drunken parties on the weekends: stay in with company that doesn't need to!  Sounds simple enough.  I don't even like half of the people I know (that's probably not true... I'm just hating on people now).  Lol.

You know that saying of doing something that scares you?  I think I will.

I don't miss my long hair, I can tell you that much.  But I am tired of looking like a boy sometimes.  Sometimes I feel short hair to be too "edgy."  But anyways, if my hair looks weird on one side, it's cause I'm fro-ing it out for tomorrow.  Just cause I can and because I think it'll be fun. 

My sister's bf is tryna get advice on what to get my sister for her upcoming birthday in October.  It's pretty fun being able to sort out what my sister would and would not like.  Hopefully I'm helping out.  It just sucks cause once I get excited about something especially towards a gift, I want to tell the person.  But luckily, I won't go blabbing... this time.

J called me earlier today and I totally screened his call (I guess I am one of those types of people that does that.  And I don't usually like talking on the phone).  Turns he was calling about his Mom's old Canon AE-1 that I was planning on keeping forever.  Turns out she wants it back, so the next time J comes back to SD I have to turn it back to its rightful owner.  I'm a bit sad, but he did say he'd get me another one for my birthday... but we'll seeeeeeeeee.  I also have my eye on another toy camera, but I think I'll just get that for myself as a birthday present to myself.

Infinity Overhead

I think I started listening to Minus the Bear in mid high school and now they are coming out with another album in a few days.  Crazy how some things just stay around right?  Anyways, I gave their new album a listen and I'm pleased.  I mean, I'm pretty much easy to please, and this I like.  I saw the release date for the album and it's the same date as J's birthday, so I'm preordering the CD+Shirt option for him.  Hopefully he enjoys it!

So this is Day 4 of my "cleanse."  And I'm sad to say that I slipped up yesterday and today.  I had a few tater tots from True North and then today I had some okoi with my Ma.  Well, I still think I'm doing okay.  I've been staying away from alcohol and cigarettes so that's more of something to yay about.  Yesterday I went to DnB's & True North for I's birthday celebration and I was so good!  I wanted to drink so bad, but it was bearable (I honestly think house parties are the ones that I really have to look out for).  It's okay though, I'll just vicariously live through N for the next month...  but we all know thats no fun.  Also, not drinking and smoking around people that do makes me notice a lot more.  For example my sense of smell was more sensitive.  It was pretty annoying smelling beer breath and 2nd hand smoke, but I live.

I'm rly just waiting for this week to go by so I can start my vegan week.  For the past few days I've been prepping myself in what I can eat and what I can make to survive that week.  And the more I research, the more I want to try giving the vegan diet an actual go!  Well see how next week treats me~

Always Where I Need to Be

So this is day three of my body cleanse.  And so far so good!  I think it's going to get a little tough over the weekends because I'm cutting out drinking AND smoking.  I got recruited to be apart of my friend's Summer Beer Olympics but had to sadly decline cause 1. I have work & 2. I'm not drinking...  I've always wanted to participate in a beer competition!  Oh well, I'll have my time to shine another time :P.  You know, I'm honestly thinking about not even going out on Friday or Saturday just to be able to resist the temptation to smoke or drink.  With all my friends around me I'm bound to give in at least a sip or a puff.  I'll see once the time comes...

School has started again for a lot of people and I feel so stagnant once again.  Well, at least I'm working on it and looking into schools (more like A school, but we'll see how that turns out).  My fingers are crossed to get started within the next month or so.  I really need to get a move on in setting a career path.  I'm tired of just working and bumming it at home.

It's my first day off today.  And I have no idea what I'm going to do today.  Maybe pick up my paycheck and deposit it.  Then maybe pick up some goods from Sprouts for the next following weeks.

I think I needa get outta the house already.

Lazy Sunday

So now that I have a set monthly work schedule, it's weird to have an entire Sunday off.  I'm not really sure what to so with myself so I've had a rather boring day today.  I was planning on going out and getting some fresh air, but then the laziness of the Sunday kicked in.  HOPEFULLY I'll at least get a chance to get out tonight.  I mean, it'll be so much cooler then.

So a couple of days ago I manned up and got my nipple pierced.  I got it done at Enigma in PB.  I've got to say that it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.  I actually think that my septum piercing hurt a lot more.  Right now it's still healing, but I already love it.  If I could I'd show everyone!  But I won't, I'm just still excited that I actually got it done (I've been bitching about it for a while now).  So now, I have a total of nine piercings.  Perfect!

It's weird to think that "Summer" is actually over.  J went back to Hawaii to start her last semester, my sister is back from her camp counseling extravaganza, and I'm here trying to figure out which path I'll take in life: continue to work or start up school again.  I'mma miss J, over the Summer we spent a lot of time together.  Whether it was getting into trouble together or just sitting around doing girl stuffs or having a beer and talking about life.  It was nice having her around this Summer.  Luckily she'll be back in a few months and possibly move back to SD once she graduates from college.  We'll see how things go from here.

Tomorrow starts day one of my detox.  It'll be a week of juicing followed by a week of a vegan diet.  Pretty much eating clean while keeping up a regular exercise regiment.  I just really need to cleanse my body.  I'm also planning on cutting out drinking and smoking during the body cleanse.  Wish me luck!  I know I'll need it~

Indian Summer

I hate starting my day off with negative vibes and self-conscious thoughts.  I hate how I'm able to just tear myself down with this feeling of not being good enough or being close to perfect.  It's hard at times to keep a positive mindset these days.  Makes me think about how high my self esteem is.  Cause I know at the moment its not high at all.  It's so sad to know this is how I am and how I feel about myself.  I used to not care what anyone thought about me and didn't have to try to fit into peoples lives or interests cause I did everything for myself.  What happened to the old me?  Why must I care so much about insignificant things in life?  Why must this always be a burden in my life.  It really is not necessary.  I'm just bringing myself down for no reason, really.  This whole paragraph is ridiculous.

So Summer has been interesting this year.  It's crazy how it's ending soon... I'm more curious as to what's going to happened once Summer is gone.  People will leave, people will start school, yada yada.  And I will once again stand still (seriously, this whole entry has this weird black cloud over it).

As of recent, I've been playing around in the kitchen trying out vegan recipes.  It's one of the only things I've got going that is keeping me sane.  At times I want to try out the vegan diet for a week or so.  See how it makes me feel and such.  Maybe in a week or so.  I also want to detox my body and cut out smoking and drinking.  I just feel like my body needs a serious cleanse.  I've been smoking for too long and drinking for so long.  I think my body needs a rest from all of the poisons I intake all the time.  It would be nice to feel energized and less sluggish all the time.

Home

It's funny when people post personal ideas and thoughts onto the internet and are surprised that people actually read it.  I mean, in some sense you do want people to see it.  Especially if it is online.  I mean, it is available to everyone unless it's private or "hidden." 

I haven't been blogging or writing or doing much these days.  It's kinda a waste to do absolutely nothing.

I've been off of work for almost a week now.  I was initially supposed to go the the bay for a week but plans got a little lame so the trip ended up not happening.  So I ended up just having a shit load of days off with not a lot planned to fill in the gap.  It was pretty upsetting cause I really wanted to see the bay kids, but I know now to plan things out better.  Or better yet just plan a trip by myself so I don't have to deal with confirmation from others.  Well, on a more positive outlook, at least I got away from work for a bit?  I actually KINDA miss it though.  I'm used to paper chasing.

SO.  S & J have found themselves in a weird sort of yolo relationship this summer.  It's interesting and I'm all for it except for a few crucial factors that are in the way.  But I'll let them continue to do this summer loving...

The Mister and I have been doing okay.  A bit shaky at times due to my impaired judgement, but we're working things through.  I wish I was able to see him more often, but it's okay.  I live.

At the moment I'm feeling kinda alone and bored with everything.  It's definitely been a lazy ass Sunday.  I've pretty much been home all day watching Parks & Recreation.  Nothing too fancy goin on this Sunday.  I kinda just wanna go out though.  Get some fresh air or something.