Capiz Shell

 

And there it is!  The finished paper chandelier!  I can't take all of the credit though!  You can make one too!

Total amount spent: $2.

Now what to do with that extra spray paint... >;)

Trapped in the 80's

So whatever I listed down below that I was supposed to keep in mind totally didn't happen.  Heck, I pretty much forgot what was listed... staying positive, health, and wealth?  Something like that.

Anyways, I've got more shit to add to my list of do:
- Be more creative (Start and FINISH projects)
- Don't spend money on luxuries (until credit card is paid off)
- Cut smoking cigarettes (this is day 5 going on 6, mind you.  Friday is my only exception.)
- Cut down on the alcoholic beverages
- Write and read more often
There's more but that's the main points of the night I guess.

Last night I thought I'd dip into my creative side and work a little project to get my juices flowing again.  I ended up making a paper chandelier from a tutorial I fell in love with about a year ago.  It came out pretty sweet!  Not as janky as I thought it was going to be!  Pictures to be posted soon!  I'm pretty satisfied with the outcome; beats spending over 40 bucks on this other lamp shade I wanted from IKEA.

I'm bored ad it's too early to sleep and my nails are a bit too wet at the moment.  Oh what to do, what to doooo..

Pop Culture

So wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully pretty

I'm such a bum sometimes.  If I don't have work scheduled for the day then I pretty much sleep in till 1PM or later and just chill in my sleeping clothes all day.  Most likely just staying in bed netflixing or watching something on tv while munching on some shit.  BUM LYFE. ;/

So I've been thinking about the process of love and the inevitability of it's end.  I was being a creeper and looking into someones life... they just went through a breakup.  And I always thought that they were made for each other.  Like LITERALLY carved for each other.  It was so ridiculously crazy how cute and madly "in love" they were.  Never really thought of the idea of them going their separate ways, but it happened.  Kinda reminded me of my past relationship.  How madly in love we were only to stray away from each other over time until we just couldn't do it anymore.  Is it possible that we just loved each other so much it made us turn on each other?  I'm not sure if that made sense.  I just don't get how you can be so "perfect" with someone and just have time corrupt every aspect of it.

I'm in dire need of a new hobby.  Or actually just motivation to dust off an old one.  C'MON!

Dripping In Gold

HAHA, this girl is my OTHER half and she just gets me.  Also congrats AGAIN on graduating!

Last night we went out to Fluxx to celebrate J's grad and one of her friend's birthday.  Was a pretty chill night, didn't get TOO crazy like the last time I was there. To put this long story short: I fed myself shots, made friends with someone I've met three times before, got a free drink from a creeper and ran away, and had a half ass drunk talk with J once we got to her car.  Simple and sweet, right?  Right.

For some reason, tonight is the night for people to chat with me on facebook.  I don't mind it, it's just weird having people message me.  I'm not used to using chat applications anymore.  Ever since AIM flew out of my life, the concept of "chatting" left with it.  Lol, I don't know man.  But thanks for the company, I guess.

Positivity

Earlier today I read an article on how to "better myself."  It's not like I haven't heard these tips on focusing on positivity and letting go of any negative thoughts.  I guess it's just easier said than done.  Actually, I guess it's cause I'm so used to the way I am and the way I think that it's easier to go back to my old ways.  But I thought to myself, and realized that I haven't been that positive girl I used to be a few years back.  What happened to that girl that screamed "Stay Positive" all the time?  Well, here's my attempt to try and get her back here.  I think I blame myself too much and need to let go of that and actually take initiative.  Actually put a foot forward and stop being afraid...

Around this time of year I get a little depressed at my life and how little bit it has progressed as I watch a friend of mine graduate.  I'm happy that they got their head on straight, I guess I just get depressed at the fact that I didn't.  But that's another negative thought I should put behind me.  I take full responsibility for me and my school work and what I prioritized before it... it just sucks feeling like the college drop out of the group.  But like I said, that's negativity that's taking me down.

Things to work on: Positivity, health, & finances.

Valley View

The past few days I've been feeling pretty off balanced. The usual faces I enjoy seeing haven't exactly been enjoyable experiences. I mean, I'm glad I'm getting to spend time with you but I'm not feeling it. I feel outcasted almost. Maybe it's just me being totally antisocial, but I don't like feeling this way. It's happened today with my trio and then my boyfriend and my sister. I just didn't put much effort in responses cause I didn't feel up to it. I even feel this way during work.

I wish I could just go home and cuddle with myself in my blanket. I need to recharge myself for tomorrow.