It's been a WHILE

I'm not sure what lead me back onto here after so long... 

Well.  Maybe it's because I finally got my lappy charger back from my sister since she's been using mine to keep her lappy alive.  Her old charger died so she stole mine until she got a new one.  So now I have access to my lappy again!!  It's kinda weird being on here though.  I've gotten so used to using my phone for everything.  I pretty much only use this to type up homework.  Since I'm able to use my lappy again, maybe I can start blogging here every so often.  I miss writing to be honest.  Even if it was only journal entry type stuff.

There's really a lot of things I'd have to update this blog about since the last time I've been here.  But I won't drown you with every single event and thought.  Well.  Maybe only the IMPORTANT stuff:

So I think the last I left off when I was here was about starting school.  NOW, I'm a little more than half way through and it's been quite journey so far.  I've made good friends with a couple of gals from my Core and we're hangin in together to make it to the finish line.  It's nice that I have friends I can talk to and be silly with and complain to when I need to.  And vice versa.  School actually is a drag most times.  But I think it's just my mind set about school in general.  The whole process of education is tiring and frustrating.  But you gotta start somewhere.  I just have to find the motivation and inspiration to keep me going cause more than half of the time I wake up in the morning my reservoir is running low on that.  I mean.  I made it this far!  I can keep it up... right?  RIGHT.

So N has been in the Philippines for the past three months and will be there for the next three months as well.  CRAZINESS.  I know.... Basically a month turned into 6 because of his parentals.  It's been a LONG ass time and I miss him to death.  But I'm doing good holding up for the most part.  I'm able to talk to him everyday and everything.  Luckily I'm keeping myself busy with school and work so I barely have down time to dwell that he's gone.

So I got a rose tatted on my shoulder for my Ma and then decided to get it extended so I went in and got it done and its half of my back pretty much.  I like it... I'm just not sure if I LOVE it yet... I still have to go in for more shading.  My biggest concern is that it doesn't rly match the rose he first did.  But then again I did show him two different styles of flowers... butttttttt yeah.  So I guess I'll just talk to him about it when I go in again.  But anyways.  Whats done is done.  I already know what I wanna have done next :P

"Sunny Disposition"

This day just seemed to zoom on by!

School was pretty cool today.  I STILL feel like the outcast... mostly because I'm not socially involved with everyone... but I feel myself starting to get comfortable.  So by the next few weeks I'm sure I won't feel like a COMPLETE outsider.

In school we actually got to work with our doll heads and touched base on finger waves, pin curls, and braiding.  There was a quote on Tumblr that I liked: "Be so good they can't ignore you -Steve Martin."  And I feel like my classmates got a taste of that today.  It felt awkward being put on the spot and everything.  But I feel like it brought validation to my worth.  Like I NOW stand out because I was good at something.  Well, it's not stopping there!!  I can't wait to learn more and gain more knowledge and skills!  I'm ready and motivated!  Also, I sprayed water down the front of my shirt trying to rinse my doll head...  Luckily I was wearing all black!... haha, kinda embarrassing but I live.

Today was also the first time I took the trolley and bus home from school.  Gotta remember to bring sunglasses for the trips back home on the trolley.  And.  Buses suck.  I think Imma have my Pops pick me up from the trolley station next time.  Walking around with all my shit just was NOT the business.  I was so out of breath and sweaty by the time I reached my house.

After a little snack and some rest, I decided to go for a run since I've been neglecting my fitness.  I made sure to start heading home before the sun went down and then I finished off with my trusty jump rope once I got back home again.  It was more of a walk than it was a run... but I'm still counting it apart of my "training schedule."

Once I settled down and showered and prepped my hair for tomorrows look, I started my HW.  YEAH.  I have hw again! :P  It was just a little fill in the blanks type of thing pretty easy stuffs.  And now I'm here.  Blogging.  It really did feel like this whole day came to an end so quickly.  I'm usually tired and sleepy by now... but I'm still pretty awake.

Actually.  I think it's time I rest and lay in bed.

First Day of School

I was pretty nervous for the first day of school.  I haven't been in a classroom setting with a bunch of new faces I've never seen or met before in a while.  So I was getting pretty anxious that I wouldn't make friends too easily or feel like an outcast or just be socially awkward.

My classmates are all pretty interesting and have great personalities and great energy.  I just feel like I'm not in my comfort zone with all these girls (there are two guys in my class!  One is a douche kinda guy and the other is gay) and I let my introverted-ness shine.  It's okay, I hope to get out and be more outgoing throughout this year or so with them.  I will be seeing 'em for the next how many weeks so I've GOT to get comfortable.  At least everyone is friendly.  I know that'll make the process of feeling comfortable that much easier.

Turns out I'm the token Asian in the class.  Everyone also seems to be married or still pretty young.  I feel so bland compared to everyone.  It's okay, I'll shine when I get a chance to, right?  We all will.

I think the most stressful part of the day was getting out kits and unwrapping and organizing everything.  It was a LOT of shit that we had to cram into a little box.  I'm really going to hate lugging all my equipment to and from school.  Public Trans Lifeeeee -_- Luckily I got my Pops to pick me up because I really had too much crap to carry with me.  At least my load will be bearable tomorrow.
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I felt the jealously awaken in me today.  I don't really feel like getting into the DETAILS details of it... but yeah.  WHY must I feel so little and insignificant at times.  This is the neverending battle with me.  Chin up, girl!!!!!!  I need more positive reinforcements in my life.

I've had this killer headache since I got out of class... I'mma shower and lay down.  Day two tomorrow!

Feel it in my Bones

Just because I heard this for the first time in forever.  And because it reminds me of Jek.  And cause I've been hearing a lot from her recently.

Even though this was pretty much my last week of freedom, I didn't really get a chance to enjoy or relax through any of it.  The past two days were SCORCHING hot.  We reached the high 100+ degree mark ;O.  It was terrible; work plus PMSing plus the ridiculous heat was horrendous.  Luckily the temperature dropped around the 80's.  Which was NICE compared to that Egypt(my coworker said it was so hot it felt like we were walking in Egypt.  LOL.) weather.

Yesterday, although was HOT as balls, was bearable due to the following factors:
- Copped a pair of JC wedges @ Nordstrom Rack for almost half the original price.  (My first pair of JC's!)
- N brought me a smoothie before my dinner shift <3
- My coworker got me a cup of whipped cream from Starbucks (I originally asked him as a joke.  But he really got it for me!  How sweet!  Lol.)

Today was kind of stupidly fucked, but I live.  I ended up working all day even though I was only scheduled to work the first part of the day and had other plans to attend.  I forget my manager doesn't care if I have a personal life or not.  I'm too nice I guess.  But whatever.  Long story short, I got my haircut done, shopped around FV mall, had an early dinner at Boudin, AND THEN went into work for my second shift.  I was pissed to be forced the work tonight and I stated that if she REALLY NEEDED ME to come in that I would be late.  So I basically took my time and relaxed till I clocked in again.  I work again tomorrow, but luckily I got her to cut my dinner shift cause I covered a coworker today.  I just wanted a fuckin day off.

I keep spending money damnit.  Keep on spending till I have no more to spend... keep on spending till I realize I don't have enough to be living this way.  IT STOPS HERE!!!!!  This week I think I bought two pairs or shoes (for school!), two mascaras (I'm currently looking for a good one that CURLS.  And I didn't know I was going to be near a Sephora today...), more black attire, a pair of earrings... and I think thats it?  Oh.  And I pre-ordered the iPhone5 ;o.  WELL IT STOPS HERE!!!!!!! ;f

I start school soon.  FUCK!!

A few things:

MY FREE RUNS FINALLY CAME IN. And they are beautiful. I don't think I've ever been this excited over a pair of Nikes before. Whatever. They are lovely and I'm breaking em in tomorrow when I run to C's house. I feel like I haven't been running often this week... actually I think I just planned out my schedule weird this time around. It's okay, I've been doing a little bit from the times I haven't been running. At least I'm keeping active.

So the iPhone 5 made it's debut today and will be released to the public on the 21st of this month. Am I one of those suckers that's buying the new iPhone? Yes, yes I am (I'm pre-ordering the bitch). Don't hate, I'm over it. The progression of technology is amazing... and I do need a new phone (my main buttons are fucked up). So there you go, you haters continue to drink that haterade. Lol.

Since this is basically my last week of freedom I've been trying to think of things to do... but I really can't think of anything spectacular to do. Oh well, I'll just make sure to enjoy it all! Regardless of that happens.

On Sunday I'm getting my hair cut. I'm not sure how I wanna do it this time. I just know that it needs to be cut. I'm thinking of just having the lady do whatever she feels like doing. I'm leaning on that option seeing as I have no clue what else I can do. Here's to forever looking like a boy! ;f

It's been a pretty eventful Tuesday!

This morning I got up early and drank my morning shake of the day (NTS: That's it, totally over coffee... kinda), tested out the bike my Dad got back a few days ago (I'm so not used to biking. And I think this bike needs some maintenance... I felt like it was going to fall apart on me!), and got ready for the rest day ahead of me.

All I had scheduled for today was the contract meeting for school. So I headed there a little early to get good parking and possibly get a head start on everything. Everything was pretty much a breeze. Left the place excited and nervous about starting next week! It's all so crazy. I already bought new clothes (seeing as I don't really have enough black clothing) and went shopping for school supplies I need for the first day.

I drove over to my love's house and we had a movie cuddle session and pretty much stayed in bed for the remaining half of the afternoon. It was nice to getta relax with him after my eventful day (looking at it now, I didn't do a LOT... I guess it was content wise). Even nicer that it wasn't scorching hot as it's been the past few weeks! So cuddling was extra comfortable :3

I feel like this is my final week of actual freedom... let's see what I can do with my days before I'm a busy busy bee.